welcome back, rinka

have a long time i didnt come here. cause i have forgot my id, haha. n i have a bit lazy about it, i seldom wrote a blog in msn spaces too. i like writing but i have no time n mood to write it wheni started my major since oct 2006.

i felt stress, i felt i'm useless, i felt i'm a rubbish.

my works cant compare with my coursemate, they're good enough, and i juz like a shit. i alwiz forced myself to do better n better. but finally i cant do it well. when i heard lecturer said my works is weak i really felt hurt. i have tried my best, but y i cant do well? i think i hv no talent in this area, should i give up?

i cant.

my parents spent lot of money for my study, i cant give up easily. but i really felt that i'm tired in graphic design, i not suitable it, o many graphic design not suitable me. started to regret, y i dont choose illustration as my major. that's more nice than graphic design. i like to draw, i'm not like to design, i dun like it. phew... change nth now, i juz can keep it up. 2 more yrs to run, can i bear it? i dunno, god will know.

going to holidays now, after that hv presentation n final to come. i'm nervous, cause i juz like do nothing in this sem, like wasting time n money, i'm suck. i felt stress, very stress, i wanna cry cause my useless. who can help me? nobody. i help myself, but i really dunno how can i help. god, gimme a deep breath.